"When it rains, it pours"

Sitting here tonight thinking alot about this past month and everything that has been thrown my way. As many of you all now in late July I found out my grandfather was diagnosed with an inoperable small cell cancer in his lungs. Luckily it was found early and is really small. In the meantime he was very sick not breathing well, dizzy and extremely weak. Seeing him 2 weeks ago and staying with him for an entire was hard and very tiring. He was weak and couldnt walk so we had to help him get to wherever he needed to go:bathroom, recliner, bed. He once again had a drop in BP and was extremely dehyydrated so he went back to the hospital last week. He has since then on Sunday was taken to the ICU to be placed on the ventilator so his body could rest. He has been diagnosed with Lambert-Eaton syndrome which is very rare it happens in 3% of the people with his type cancer. It causes all the symptoms of weakness, vocal strain, and severe breathing problems. So the decision was made to act quickly and aggressively to kill the tumor with radiation and chemo. He underwent his first radiation today and is ill and very agitated. He will finish radiation on Sunday then straight into chemo on monday. It is especially hard for me living in Auburn and not being able to help. I have a need to help and it hurts knowing I can't physically be their to do anything. Because I havent been feeling well this week I wasnt able to go see him because. After talking with a friend this week, I realized I am in auburn for a reason, simply to pray for him. Because sometimes in all the helping you can forget the most important thing in these situations:PRAYER. So I know being here is bringing me closer to HIM and making me realize just how much we are loved by God!!!!

Secondly my dear friend, Emily who i consider family is in the ICU and also on a ventilator fighting ARDS caused by double pneumonia. After finding this out my heart broke and I began to think God i cant take anymore. Naturally I think to help. What can I do, and again im sick so the hospital is not where i can be right now. Knowing that i cant help in the way that I want to with my grandfather, all of that kind of flooded over to do anything and everything I can. So i have been hanging out with the kids AK and Garrett. So for the time to come with Em's recovery i will be praying hard for her and her family to get through what is going to be a long journey ahead!

So tonight i was thinking of the phrase "When it rains, it pours" then I recieved and email from a friend about a NOOMA video we will be teaching our youth this sunday. Its called rain and it put everything in perspective of how and why this could be happening, He is constantly reminding of how good he is and how he is with us everywhere we go. As we cry out for Him to wrap his healing hands around our friends and family, he is right here saying I love you!!!

here is the link to the video, really think it is worth watching:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYKa9E1xzao